crossroads <\3

i wish to be alone .. i know you'll keep me happy but with everything dats  goin on, i'll make you sufffer at every step..love is al about giving and not taking away everythin from sm1 u care abt.


i'm afraid of commiting myself..i want to follow all paths...explore this world and then end up being wid sm1 who i kno is perfect fo me.


being with u is like choosing a path....and having choosen one , means to miss out on others..i sound like an idiot...bt this is wat d confusion is about.


i ve a whole life to live, a life full of intrigue and love. but i alwys remain confused about choosing a path, cos deep down inside i'm scared wat if d path i ve choosen was a wrong one, wat if it leads me to place i dont want to be.... when u start walkin on a road, u dont know where it ends...and unless u are sure abt its end point, ur dillema abt having choosen a wrong road continues...


at some point i feel its gud to be afraid of love because it involves things that are beyond one's understanding...it sheds such a brilliant light but d shadow it casts is frightening.. when u make choices, u should kno, u can only be close to ppl , if u are one of them.


maybe this feeling of despair and restlessness is god's way of showin me a way.