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mi amor

Am I ready to tell the world?
Either its done forever or I need to move on….
My heart is bleeding…but its not my blood alone
I feel like a murderer…
How can I be so damn confused. Am loosing my self confidence….
Am dying…in denial..in blurred lines…
am being sucked …am in fire
I don’t want to kill my self…I want to live.
I don’t want hurt u  but I cant hurt my self anymore.
I need to stop right now…or else it will be too late.
Its neither  fling nor infatuation…
it’s the longest I ever loved.

just another morning

The alarm rings and i get up 
Realizing that even though i just slept the night 
my body is exhausted 
my soul is tired 
And while i try to fire my engine 
To zoom out of bed to meet the day 
i roll out, slowly, puttering instead of zooming 

my mind feels a little cloudy 
So i attempt a few of my tried and true go-tos to slough off the tired blanket that has wrapped itself around my entire being 

A shower, some yoga, caffeine, the internet ... those should get me going 
But yet even if they do provide a small jolt of wake up 
Underneath, the tired and empty place remains 
For while there is work to be done, 
and people who are tugging at me for attention 
The truth is... 
If i took a moment out of  my life, to look in the mirror into my eyes, 
the window to your heart and soul 
What i only  see and hear back in response is ...
"i have nothing more left to give today." 

m just a lil girl

i alwys remember every detail, every moment, every piece of the memories left.... No matter how much i try to forget, it will forever be there.sounds weird ,complicated and irritating sometimes but so m i..

i may not show it, but inside, the smallest things kill me. i  try hard not to show it, because i hate feeling weak around people. The smallest thing you do can hurt me. Not physically but mentally.

i' ll yell at you, get  jealous. M  stubborn,  over think, get insecure. Sumtyms my  moods r like a roller coaster. i ll probably nt listen to you, and  won’t do anything right. Bt m just a lil girl inside.

Being a gal is hard.. but I’ve learned who to trust and who to ignore. I don’t forgive people because I’m weak, I forgive them because I’m strong enough to know that people make mistakes. It’s hard to grow up in a society where you will never be the pretty girl. Everyone seems to have everything you don’t and dreams are always one cloud away from where you are.

I don’t wanna have a great, amazing couple of months and then all of a sudden its over. I don’t want to experience the feeling of being lost, confused, and hurt all over again. the best thing that can ever happen to a girl is when she realizes her strengths and potentials. she is everything this world can ever think of.....she's a girl!!

crossroads <\3

i wish to be alone .. i know you'll keep me happy but with everything dats  goin on, i'll make you sufffer at every step..love is al about giving and not taking away everythin from sm1 u care abt.


i'm afraid of commiting myself..i want to follow all paths...explore this world and then end up being wid sm1 who i kno is perfect fo me.


being with u is like choosing a path....and having choosen one , means to miss out on others..i sound like an idiot...bt this is wat d confusion is about.


i ve a whole life to live, a life full of intrigue and love. but i alwys remain confused about choosing a path, cos deep down inside i'm scared wat if d path i ve choosen was a wrong one, wat if it leads me to place i dont want to be.... when u start walkin on a road, u dont know where it ends...and unless u are sure abt its end point, ur dillema abt having choosen a wrong road continues...


at some point i feel its gud to be afraid of love because it involves things that are beyond one's understanding...it sheds such a brilliant light but d shadow it casts is frightening.. when u make choices, u should kno, u can only be close to ppl , if u are one of them.


maybe this feeling of despair and restlessness is god's way of showin me a way.

just another note !!

You are all about me - I seem to breathe you, hear you, feel you in me and of me.


 You have touched me more profoundly than I thought even you could have touched me - my heart is full when you come fo me.. and so I wish to be yours.
i believe one fine night the doors will be broken down and there I shall be....but dunno wat scares me... i'm afraid if you wud not like me then..!
where would i be... alone and left over !


We have promised each other -- haven't we? -- To be at least great friends, even if it dsnt work out...If you do not change your mind and if we still exist together eternally... For there are no promises that are binding; such things cannot be ordered at will. It would be a fine thing, just the same, in which I hardly dare believe, to pass our lives near each other, hypnotized by our dreams.


Amid everything ,i don understand tis confusion ....
i want to be with you yet i wish to keep u far away from me..i'm sad because i wish to explore myself before i surrender myself to u...
Why this deep sorrow ??where necessity speaks already-- can our love endure except through sacrifices -- except through not demanding everything -- can you change it that i'm  not wholly yours,and you not wholly mine?


i believe someday, i'l be sure, just like you are.. We two, you know,will  have everything before us, and we shall do very great things together.  I have perfect faith in us, and so perfect is my love for you that I am, as it were, still, silent to my very soul.

cartas a mi amor

The fountains mingle with the river, 
And the rivers with the ocean; 
The winds of heaven mix forever, 
With a sweet emotion; 
Nothing in the world is single; 
All things by a law divine 
In one another's being mingle;-- 
Why not I with thine?